Getting back to me.

Before I was anything… a singer, a rocker, an artist, a girlfriend… I was a writer. It was the passion that enveloped me and pushed me forward. I was obsessive and quirky and driven to finish my books. I was creative and imaginative and dreamed of being published.

But then things started to get in the way…

I started a band which led to great things but also led me away from my writing … and now five years later my favorite stories in the making have been kept simmering for too long.

The characters are scratching at my head and wiggling their way back into my creative sector. Write. That’s all I want to do. I miss my stories. The playlists that accompanied them and the hours of research. I miss seeing the characters come to life and feeling the story unfolding.

I finished one book five years ago and its been sitting there untouched for just as long.

I need to shut out the world for a few days and spend some quality time with a blank page and my muses.

I need to go to that place no one knows about and let everything flow freely.

Think of it as a vacation.

But when I come back… I’ll have stories in hand.

♥ WendyBirdGypsy

it’s funny.

It’s funny. That’s the only way to describe the feeling when the world stops, and you see lives around you changing. When crying and smiling is all your mind can fathom. When you feel yourself being pulled in the same direction. And you’re happy. Exstatically happy. Because in a year or two, that person that stops the world and changes life as everyone knows it, just might be you. And you’ll smile and cry some more. And you’ll think back to when you realized that this is growing up. And your future isn’t that far off.

No song can capture this excitement.

My mind is numb from pure joy. I always associated this numb feeling with anger and sorrow, but I realize now it comes with overwhelming happiness too. The only difference is it feels bubbly. Like if I sat long enough I’d float away.

I am happy for the lives my friends are creating, and I wish them all the luck and joy that this world can give, and when that isn’t enough I know that their friends back “Home” will be there to pick up the slack.

Sometimes the most unexpected occurances can be the most life changing.